-Immense sigh-

Wow, I haven't updated this in a long time. And it's not because I've been busy... it's because I've got nothing to talk about.
But today I have a LOT to talk about. Not because so much has happened between now and my last post, it's because of everything going on right now.
I don't know if this is something like puberty or anything, but I think I've had a ton of mood swings lately. I've been feeling so depressed lately. I don't know... it doesn't make sense. I'm trying to find out why I'm depressed, but there's only one thing coming up in my mind. I feel like no one gives a shit about me. I mean, sure, I've got friends and I've got family... but I just feel so unloved. Like no one cares about me. Why do I feel like this? I don't know. Maybe it's one-sided love. I wrote a poem once called 'black love.' Well, later I found out that love is a beautiful thing. But there are only two cases where love is truly black. 1. when you're experiencing one-sided love (like me) or 2. if you're experiencing lost love. Now I've never experienced lost love, but I have learned how much one-sided love hurts. I bet the guy I like doesn't even know I like him. We're good friends, but I don't think I'm ready to tell him that I like him. Now I won't state his name because he might read this. Then again, maybe I should say his name because no one reads this because no one cares about me, anyway. But there's always a chance, so I'm not going to say his name. And thus, the title of this post. -Immense sigh.- There are only two things that are making me happy at the moment. 1. my new obsession with the video game Brawl, and 2. talking to that guy I like. I haven't been playing Brawl for a while, so my only chance for staying alive right now is talking to that guy I like online. Otherwise I'd just kill myself. I just wish there were some way to tell him... without actually telling him.